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Feb 26, 2006 22:59:22 GMT -5
Post by Niessa Lucine Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 22:59:22 GMT -5
"You are NOT ready to be a father, Rionos Zanlaraniel! You still act on impulse, and that's something you have to control before we even think about having a kid. And then there was that episode with Sirius getting lost on you. I'm sorry, Rionos...but I cant...not right now." She eyed him. "And if you didnt mean it, apologize to her...please..."
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Feb 26, 2006 23:03:43 GMT -5
Post by Rionos Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:03:43 GMT -5
"He ran away, I didn't mean for it to happen, but I can be a father!" He shook his head."The way I act doesn't make me any less ready!" Shaking his head, he just slammed his fist on the ground.
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Feb 26, 2006 23:09:05 GMT -5
Post by Niessa Lucine Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:09:05 GMT -5
"It does! Having a kid is a lot of work, Rionos. Besides it's not like I'm saying no forever. You know I love and you KNOW I want to give you a child, but right now...I dont know if we can....I honestly dont think either of us are ready."
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Feb 26, 2006 23:12:07 GMT -5
Post by Rionos Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:12:07 GMT -5
"Niessa, we've been ready for years. What about when we were in that other world? Huh? All those years together, so many years I wanted to ask, but I didn't. I wasn't ready then, but now I'm ready, I want a child." He sighed."Forget it. I'm fighting a losing battle."
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Feb 26, 2006 23:17:06 GMT -5
Post by Niessa Lucine Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:17:06 GMT -5
She eyed him, memories of their time there coming back to her head. She had the strongest urge to cry, but she just couldnt..she wouldnt let herself do it. "Rionos..." She bit her lips. "....Back in that other world...I was going to give you a child...and I wanted to tell you so badly...and when the time finally came...right before I had finally gotten myself to tell you...I...I..lost it...do you remember when I locked myself up in that tower for about a month?.....I...I was mourning..."
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Feb 26, 2006 23:21:23 GMT -5
Post by Rionos Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:21:23 GMT -5
He eyed her and sighed."You...and you kept it a secret all this time? And I couldn't help you?" He frowned."No more secrets Niessa, no more. That was something we were supposed to go through together! That's why I married you! That's why I wake up every damn day thanking the world you're in my life!" He stood up and shook his head. He could have had a kid, he could have known, could have even tried to prevent.
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Feb 26, 2006 23:29:08 GMT -5
Post by Niessa Lucine Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:29:08 GMT -5
"...I was scared to tell you back then....we were still going on adventures....and I was terrified I would stop you from doing something you loved...I thought...I thought nothing would happen...and when I was finally ready to tell you...I dont know what happened...that's why I'm not ready to have another child....I dont want to lose another one..." She frowned. "I'm sorry Rionos...I know I should have told you before...during our time there...but I wasnt ready to tell you....I was...still am...mourning it...the life that could have been." She frowned again.
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Feb 26, 2006 23:33:09 GMT -5
Post by Rionos Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:33:09 GMT -5
"I could have had a child..." He eyed her."Stop me from doing something I love? I've NEVER put you second to that, EVER! Why something like that would even enter your mind is beyond me! I see you weren't ready, but for THIS long?! You should have told me, you should have said something...given me a hint...nothing, absolutely nothing. I've been walking around, blind, blind to the fact I lost my child! You've been letting me see things in one way and that's not fair!" His eyes were full of tears now, anger and pain were practically devouring him at this point.
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Feb 26, 2006 23:36:51 GMT -5
Post by Niessa Lucine Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:36:51 GMT -5
"DO YOU THINK IT'S BETTER TO BE HAUNTED BY THE MEMORY FOR EVERYDAY OF YOUR LIFE RIONOS?!" She yelled angrily to him. "Do you think it's fun to know that the life growing inside of me, seized to be. That it died and there was nothing I could do?! Nothing me....the descendant of the angel of life could do! So dont you dare give me that. I should have told you yes! I made a mistake by keeping it from you for this long, yes, I admit that. But dont you fucking DARE act like the victim! Until you go through what I went through....dont you fucking dare give me that!"
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Feb 26, 2006 23:41:41 GMT -5
Post by Rionos Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:41:41 GMT -5
"You didn't even let me try to help you! You didn't even give me the damn option! Yes, what you went through is horrible, and how dare you make it as if I was lessening that! I love you and I'm only NOW being told this! I can't stand it! I'm treated like I'm someone who doesn't know as much as I should, who goes into things for idiotic and stupid reasons, and as if I have a vendetta against everyone and I'm inconsiderate about it! But I know what I'm doing, and the reasons are nothing stupid or idiotic and I care for everyone just as much as everyone else does! I can't be here right now, I can never truly feel I'm establishing myself as person around here anymore. I feel as if I'm considered as much as the dog is. I need to be alone right now." And with one last sad glance her way, he disappeared in a loud explosion of blue flames that left a five foot diameter crater where he had stood.
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Feb 26, 2006 23:46:21 GMT -5
Post by Niessa Lucine Zanlaraniel on Feb 26, 2006 23:46:21 GMT -5
She screamed in frustration. "HOW CAN I TELL YOU IF I WASNT COMING TO TERMS WITH IT MYSELF!" Angry tears began to sting her eyes. Her voice becoming must lower now. "...I didnt tell you...because of your actions....I didnt tell you because I was scared....damn it...scared and I didnt want you to live with this burden..." She placed her head down, rocking herself. "I'm sorry....I couldnt save you....I'm so sorry...." Then her voice became silent.
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